Stop worrying about how you feel.
You lied, you cheated, you lusted, you gorged. You snapped, you hated, you cussed, you masturbated. You killed, you manipulated, you rejected or ignored.
God doesn’t want just half of your heart. God doesn’t want you to talk to Him only when you’re in the mood to do so. God wants all of you. He wants you when you’re sinless and when you’re sinful. He wants you on the days when you’re strong and on the days when you relapse. He doesn’t want just your beautiful parts, He wants everything.
Stop staying excuses. Stop listening to the devil. Stop thinking you can’t “go to God” because you feel you’re too unclean, ugly, or dirty. Stop worrying about how you feel because it’s not about you. Run to Him, even if you’d rather be dormant. Go to Him even if you’d rather hide in your guilt.
Ignore your laziness, embarrassment, and shame and go spend some time with the One who died for every dirty thing you think keeps Him away."
I’m trying to find the balance between recognizing the truth of others’ criticisms and the conviction of my own judgment.
I want to know that I’m not picking the opposite of something to prove to someone else that I’m doing the right thing.
I’m tired of anxiously twitching every time I invest my heart into something you don’t approve.
I know everyone else has a vision for my life, and if I’m making a mistake, maybe I want the chance to find out on my own.
I would hope you could cheer on my dream, no matter how silly it sounds or how you’ve made up your mind or how you think you’d do it differently. You might despise writing or dancing or music or ministry or charity or the arts — but that could be resentment for something you didn’t even try to understand.
I want a fair chance to pursue my passions without extra discouragement and distraction and division: because you are making a hard thing even harder.
You can either be the voice that fuels my self-doubt and fear, and I’ll have to overcome you, or you can be the voice that grows a deeper thoughtfulness about my own direction and creates forward momentum, and I’ll thank you later."